She was a lovely grandmother, she told me lots in the past, just only last week she talked to me Asking me whether there was a job for me. She didn't want any problems occuring in the death of her. She also had this fat Jack russel, much like my dog, on her way to rolling away, as she is sitting on a box next to me, barking at nothing. But in the far distance a light of a house is shining. I'm reminded of how I use to swim at my grandmothers house, when I was wet I had to stay outside to become dry, because I left my towel, especially on a stormy day.
The last known thing about her, is she is sitting with a cigarette in her hand in that chair she loves, while her dog eats its food like there is no tomorrow. She use to bake cookies aswell, she's always let us have them, and the food at the house was wonderful. There was paintings in the house that seemed to always stare at you.
She loved the stories of Miss Potter, the schizophrenic writer. As am I Schizophrenic.
Schizophrenia is diagnosed as hallucinations occur. Because of too many hormones in the brain, of the left and right. I never had hallucinations, because I was caught when I was at the first stage. It's something I'll have forever and some might not see me live on my own one day as I do trust their guidance at many times. Ignorance is often the first step in learning, just if your ignorant enough you might just teach yourself if you try really hard at changes in your life. Like eating habits for a change or even Vanity at its best. Much like the story book. “All is vanity.”
There are so much errors in thinking and philosophy is the first step to knowing 13 ways of thinking options when stuck in a hard time. As often is THE SAGE GAME is played: is often of two people who are intelligent enough to not known each other face to face, but getting to know each individual or person through knowledge and observation.
Love Nightshade,
Flowers for your grave.
