Well, something new

Something my sister told me that my grandmother said, "a realtionship is like mercury if you hold on too tightly to a relationship, it'll eventaully disapear, just let it sit in the palm of your hands, let it slip between your fingers, and if it is on the floor, it will eventaully evapurate and be a part of you." It's words of advice I have probably forgotten as a young kid....

Production

So I've got a test for production or a few days of being shown around and getting the feel for the place. I finished sculpting a bullet hole, a make-up and also a nose sculpt. And I think I should get the dental stone or plaster of paris just to know how the dental stone works and silicone together.

Doris Day

Today I searched the web in search of the name Doris Day, becuase my dad called me that once. After just one search result the words, "The very thought of you!" Sang on the internet. A blonde famous actress in fight for animal rights. I was thinking then about Dominies, why would they go for little children and only about a month and a half ago I saw one kick my dog, only becuase she was barking and jumping. When I was a kid I'd sit in the church and then say, "He said that already."

While the Domnie is preaching. It's funny how little children act and they don't have a care in the world about age, they have it good, they just want to grow up. I'm not as young and thin as I used to be. But I'm wizer and smarter than I normally--- used to be.

She-- Doris Day had that 30th century hair style curled and pinned up, from what I can see she most probably wore Red Rose lipstick. Which is the fashion of this year for young women in fashion. Most of my friends in college said the 1930s hair fit me, but for me I usually can't see a resemblance in me and actresses.

Someone once said I looked like Zao a french singer. I proved him wrong. Seems that all men has their fantasies in life. There is just a select few who wouldn't compare you with others and doesn't care if you don't wear make-up, still showing you off to the world.

Love Nightshade

Our good lord take care of you!

Nightshade here, lets get this party rolling. So lately I've been looking for a job in capetown. I've been doing temporary jobs as an make-up artist and creative writer. But david wants me to live with him. After a week from being bothered by someone in Love with me and weeks of disappointment. I finally got rid of this feeling that nobody can mess with your head. And finally after one day I woke up to my dad telling me that my grandmother passed away in her sleep on 30^th of September.

She was a lovely grandmother, she told me lots in the past, just only last week she talked to me Asking me whether there was a job for me. She didn't want any problems occuring in the death of her. She also had this fat Jack russel, much like my dog, on her way to rolling away, as she is sitting on a box next to me, barking at nothing. But in the far distance a light of a house is shining. I'm reminded of how I use to swim at my grandmothers house, when I was wet I had to stay outside to become dry, because I left my towel, especially on a stormy day.

The last known thing about her, is she is sitting with a cigarette in her hand in that chair she loves, while her dog eats its food like there is no tomorrow. She use to bake cookies aswell, she's always let us have them, and the food at the house was wonderful. There was paintings in the house that seemed to always stare at you.

She loved the stories of Miss Potter, the schizophrenic writer. As am I Schizophrenic.

Schizophrenia is diagnosed as hallucinations occur. Because of too many hormones in the brain, of the left and right. I never had hallucinations, because I was caught when I was at the first stage. It's something I'll have forever and some might not see me live on my own one day as I do trust their guidance at many times. Ignorance is often the first step in learning, just if your ignorant enough you might just teach yourself if you try really hard at changes in your life. Like eating habits for a change or even Vanity at its best. Much like the story book. “All is vanity.”

There are so much errors in thinking and philosophy is the first step to knowing 13 ways of thinking options when stuck in a hard time. As often is THE SAGE GAME is played: is often of two people who are intelligent enough to not known each other face to face, but getting to know each individual or person through knowledge and observation.

Love Nightshade,

Flowers for your grave.